movies….

I’ve been watching a lot of movies lately. Between the eye surgery down time, holiday and just overall trying to let myself chill & not work around the clock as much… here’s what I’ve seen lately: Envy, Jimmy Neutron – Boy Genius, Matchstick Men, Love Actually, The Life of David Gale and we finally finished off Season 2 of Six Feet Under.

Envy was just OK… if not bad. :/ I love Jack Black, but this movie was kinda weird… It’s no surprise it went straight to video.

Jimmy Neutron: Boy Genius – I’ve been wanting to see this since it came out. I love characters that are super geeky and make up awesome inventions that can do outrageous things. Jimmy Neutron has now joined my list of favorite geeks, that also includes: Dexter (of Dexter’s Labratory), Professor Frink (of The Simpsons), and although he’s not aaas geeky, he totally makes up cool shit: Calvin (of Calvin & Hobbes). The movie was fun to watch, 3D graphics wise.. and just overall silly & entertaining for a relaxing weekend movie.

Matchstick Men was great. Nicolas Cage isn’t my favorite actor – but he totally didn’t bug me in this movie & was actually REALLY good. The plot totally had me wrapped around it’s finger and overall I loved it.

Love Actually was soo cute! I loved it!!! It shows how much love there is everywhere, and then more personally how wonderful and yet how difficult love can be all at the same time. To quote the 10 year old, Sam, “[What’s] worse than the total agony of being in love?” I highly recommend it for anyone.

Finishing off watching all of Season 2 of Six Feet Under… all I can say to this is aaaaaaag!!!! Now I have to wait till I can find Season 3!!!! Please oh please oh please Season 3, come out soon or have someone send me a copy!!!

Lastly, lastnight I watched The Life of David Gale. WOW. Such a great movie!!!! I thought it was going to be totally depressing… but after checking it out again & realizing it has one of my favorite actors, Kevin Spacey, in it – I knew I had to watch it. That man does *not* do bad movies. Plus, Kate Winslet was in it and she too is a pretty fantastic actor. Bottom line is it’s a movie that makes you think! It makes you think about how fast life can change, how insane the system is (down to how many incredibly intellegent people there are in the world, and yet some of the biggest idiots are in charge), and how much we sacrifice in our lives for the things that are most important to us. I really enjoyed the threads of philosophy… I think I should have taken more Philosophy classes.

Next up: Motorcycle Diaries!

Photos posted!

I just posted some pre-lasik/Thanksgiving Day photos and pics from last Sunday’s Loquat/Evan Dando show at Bottom of the Hill.

I finally got to see Loquat perform and they were GREAT!!! Kylee has an AMAZING voice… and it’s true what they say – her voice is a beautiful mix between Bjork, The Cranberries & The Sundays – and she sings beautiful songs!!

Seeing Evan Dando play stoked the 17 year old inside me SOOO big time! In ’93 I used to play The Lemonheads’ “It’s a Shame About Ray” over and over and over and over. Luckily my show ho buddy Jem was as hard core of a fan as I was (actually she trumps me in the psycho fan arena on this one :) so I was happy that she came along!!

Evan is still sooo hot (besides hippy shaggy hair and the smoking – ick), and his singing is beautiful. I LOVED seeing him live, and as you can see we were so close I could have touched him! *17yr old in me squeels with delight* My favorite song was “My Drug Buddy” and I was sooo stoked when he played it. I even remembered most all the words to the songs on that CD after all these years! Most surprising because I haven’t listened to it in about 10 years since it was stolen when I was 19. But good ol Jem’s gonna burn me a copy of hers so it can be back in my collection. phew!

Anyway – enjoy the photos.

a whole new look on life… [my lasik story]

BEFORE:

AFTER:

The day before Thanksgiving (last Wednesday), I got Lasik Eye Surgery!! I didn’t tell too many people about it, mostly because I was nervous myself! However, Thanksgiving was a great opportunity to simply tell clients I was going to be away in order for me to have a few days of healing before having to jump back into work, so now I will spill it to you all:

I CAN SEE!!!!!!

I have worn glasses since I was in 4th grade and contacts since I was in 7th. For as long as I can remember I haven’t been able to see past a few inches in front of my face w/o the help of contacts or glasses. Reading in bed or putting on makeup without my contacts or glasses, the book or mirror would literally have to be 2 inches in front of me or it was blurry. (-6, -6 in contact speak if you’re familiar)

I’ve been wanting this done for a long time and first went for a consultation almost a year ago. However, finding out the cost I had to decide: Surgery or Powerbook? And as you know, the Powerbook won :) But here it is a year later, and I just didn’t want to wait any more, so I made it happen (with a little help from my wonderful momma, too! xoxo)

Results: It’s absolutely AMAZING. I feel like I’m in a dream that I’ll wake up from any minute… I just honestly feel like it’s a MIRACLE they can do this and I truly can’t believe after years of having the world so blurry, that now w/o the help of anything in or on my eyes, I can go asleep seeing across the room before I shut my eyes – and wake up and see everything clear as day. I am overjoyed!!!

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After consulting with a few surgeons in the area, I went to Dr. Scott Hyver in Daly City. It worked out perfectly since he is a short 15 minutes away from my house!

Dr. Hyver’s staff is SO KNOWLEDGEABLE! I was immediately so impressed with their professionalism, their breadth of information about my options and the risks, etc. Especially compared to the people over at Dr. Ella Faktorovich’s office, who if you’re at all looking around in the Bay area, you’re bound to run into her name all over the place. I had consulted with their office last year and really thought I was going to go with them – however, in speaking with them further, their consultant not only came off as *incredibly under-educated* when it came to being able to answer my questions, but I’ve concluded from their prices and consulting approach that they are extremely greedy, rude and are not as conservative (read: safe) in terms of their patient approach (I’ll discuss this more later). Needless to say, I was beyond relieved to find Dr. Hyver’s office and my consultation with him and his staff only reaffirmed their expertise.

Much to my surprise, however, upon my initial consultation with them the shape of my cornea on my left eye kept testing as abnormal, and therefore Dr. Hyver recommended we do PRK on that eye. I was nervous about this, but I read up a ton about it, asked a lot of questions and was prepared to go that route. Especially since I knew Dr. Hyver was recommending that because it was safer and not as risky under the conditions. I’d even called my Mom’s Lasik eye Doctor in Denver, CO and he assured me PRK is still considered a very excellent procedure, and that he himself had that done on his eyes for the same reason – and that he was really glad to hear the Doctor I was considering was taking that conservative approach, as it’s most definitely safer for eyes that test abnormal in any way.

The deal w/ PRK is that it just doesn’t have the instant satisfaction that Lasik does, and the recovery time is a bit longer and more uncomfortable. But Dr. Hyver and his staff said it was going to be way better than those who have to have PRK in both eyes, because my right eye would have the Lasik I would still be fairly good to go right away and would have to wait about 1-6 months for the PRK eye to catch up and be 100%.

Great news though!! The day we went in for my surgery, they tested me again – and lo & behold that eye wasn’t testing as abnormal anymore!

See, we’d done a number of tests the first day and basically they look for symmetry on the eye (a circle 8, if you look at the eye maps), but it kept coming up as abnormal because there was no circle 8 on that eye. But they said it could have been from my eyes being dry or just from my having worn contacts so long, etc. But all of a sudden the circle 8 was there on the day of the surgery! They said if it was truly deformed it wouldn’t change like that, so maybe because I’d taken out my contacts and only worn my glasses for a whole week before my surgery and had already been prepping my eyes with moisturizing drops (by Dr. Hyver’s request/recommendation – things like this are what I’m talking about when I say I respected his safe patient approach) it was testing normal and therefore safe to do Lasik! woohooo!!

Rick was there with me (ready to drive me home post surgery) and we read through a bunch of instructions, waivers, etc. But NOTHING could have prepared me for the actual procedure. It was really quite scary I gotta say!! The second eye went fast and w/o a hitch, but my first eye took a little while longer than we’d all have liked because I couldn’t follow the dot. Every time it started moving all weird (almost like double vision) and when I tried to follow it, he would say that I wasn’t following it. It was really stressful!! But he said nothing was going wrong, we would just have to stop & start and therefore it would take a little longer. Inside I was bawling my eyes out and wishing it would just get over with and somebody would just hold me and tell me it was all going to be ok. But thankfully the left eye went off w/o a hitch and all of a sudden we were done! YAY!!!

The next few minutes were a bit of a blur, I put their funny glasses on and was marched into another room. The assistant (who was also my counselor and I really connected w/ her so I was sooo glad she was there with me!) was so thrilled for me, but I couldn’t muster up any excitement except that I was just so glad it was over! I wanted to keep my eyes closed, but even opening them a little looking through the glasses, I could already tell that I could see so much better.

I walked out to Rick, and a waiting room full of people. A stressed out pre-surgery girl asked why I was crying, but it was mostly that you are tearing like crazy afterwards, so it’s uncontrollable. Rick was asking me if I was ok, and I just kept saying how intense it was, but pulled it together enough to reassure the four-eyed group that I could actually see all of them! They all clapped and we thanked the people at the front desk and left.

As soon as we walked out the front door, on the way to the car I just started sobbing. It was soo intense and I was feeling kinda woosy from the whole experience and I just was praying this feeling would go away. Rick was soo good at taking care of me and I just put my head down and closed my eyes the whole way home. My head felt very heavy and my eyes felt soooo tired. Like one of those dreams where you can’t open them no matter how hard you try. But when I would open them just a little to see where we were at on the road, I could see. However I was in no mood to be excited about it at the time.. I just wanted to get home and stop moving (closing my eyes for the trip and the whole fresh experience in my mind was making me a little ill). Thankfully we got home in no time and I got inside, took off my clothes and crawled into bed with my new fandangled dont-touch-your-eyes -while-sleeping eye mask (that kinda look like some crazy snowboarding goggles or something :)

Rick was awesome and while I tried to fight off my icky feeling, he covered up the window near me (eyes sensitive to light), and put on a music mix for some background music, since I quickly realized lying there in silence, thinking about how uncomfortable my eyes felt wasn’t helping at all. The music was wonderful!! And soon I dozed off into a more peaceful wonderland and woke up about 2 hours later feeling WAY better!!!!! I was sooo thrilled to be feeling better, but most of all – I COULD SEE!!!!!! I had Rick come crawl in bed with me and I read everything on my walls and bookshelves to him. It is SUCH. A. MIRACLE!!! I can’t believe it.

That night I watched a movie and I felt fine!! The next day we went in for my follow up and everything was lookin good! Better than 20/20!! I hugged Dr. Hyver and got very teary as I tried to quickly tell him how miraculous it was to me.

Thanksgiving day we went over to another couple’s house who live in North Beach, so they have amazing views of the Bay Bridge, Golden Gate Bridge, Coit Tower and TransAmerica building all from their roof. Even though it was a cloudy day, it was so neat to go up there and be able to see everything so clearly and know for the FIRST time in my entire life I was looking at that view w/o my contacts. WOW!

Since then they’re doing good, but very, very dry… which is common for the first week ++ after this surgery. My eyes are still healing so the clarity and such will even be shifting over the next couple days and weeks while they completely heal – but already I can see just as well as I did with my contacts and I’m sooooo thrilled I could just cry! :) :) It’s amazing.

So there ya go. That’s what I did for Thanksgiving and I’m very, very thankful! :)

HERE ARE LINKS TO OF ALL MY POSTS ABOUT LASIK:

I am adding these links to this post on 2/18/05, and since I have gotten it done, I have received several emails from people who are about to get Lasik (most with Dr. Hyver) and have found my site via Google.

If you have made your appointment to get it done – Congratulations!!! I had a great experience at Scott Hyver’s office and overall it was worth every penny. It still blows me away every. single. day. that I can see without contacts or glasses!!! Truly a miracle.

I was really impressed with Dr. Hyver because he does take a conservative approach.. he’s not just there to get people through the door with lasik no matter what – he wants to make sure you get the best procedure for *your* eyes. Which was comforting to me – especially after the runaround with Dr. Faktorovich’s office where it seemed they could have cared less & just wanted the $7K!

Dr. Hyver himself is a busy man around there, and I like that he was kinda all business. There to answer my questions – and not trying to play the cheesy doctor trying to make everyone love him. His staff, his surgeries and his knowledge all speak for themself.

All of my follow ups went well. His staff was so nice and helpful every step of the way. I had some concerns with the blurriness due to dryness afterwards, but they were all really comforting and helpful the entire time.. and I never felt like my phone calls were a problem, etc.

2 Months later: My eyes are doing great! I still use ointment at night, only because I figure I’ll use up these tubes I have – and it helps my eyes stay much more moist the entire next day. I’m not having to put rewetting drops in as much hardly at all. Maybe just a couple times a day while I’m working on the computer or driving a long distance. And I don’t use the thicker ones anymore (Refresh Celluvisc or Endura), like I did at first since they last a lot longer (which I needed because I was needing to constantly moisturize). I’m just using the basic Refresh Plus drops now.

As I posted before, I think the biggest tip I can give people for the healing process, is to not be surprised if you find yourself spending quite a bit on the rewetting drops. It adds up… but overall if I’ve spent maybe $200 on drops, it’s been incredibly worth it to make sure my eyes are healing up right and feeling comfortable.

If you find this post & it’s helped you, let me know. And better yet, come back & post after your surgery. You’ll be totally amazed. :)

LIMITED TIME OFFER: I just got something in the mail – should any of you be googling & finding/reading this – Scott Hyver’s office just sent me a coupon for $250 off for me to give to someone I know. Email me if you want it: willo at willotoons.com – it says it’s good till June 10, 2005.

UPDATE: Just say that I sent you! They should give you a friend referral rate!

UPDATE March, 2011:
You can read this update in the comments below, but I’m here to report that now, 7.5 years later, I just got glasses & contacts again. Mind you, I’m only -.75 now, as compared to -6, so I really don’t need them, it just helps for seeing signs & making out faces further away. And, I have absolutely NO REGRETS in getting the procedure. It is truly miraculous & totally worth all those years of 20/20 vision, not to mention that still to this day I don’t have to wear them (especially on the computer & such), it just helps me see things far away a bit more crystal clear. Anywhooooo… considering I just got a comment about it, I thought I’d add it in here, in case anyone else reading wanted to know. Want to see my cute new glasses? :)

waaaah

I just lost a whole huge blog post. :(

Aarggg… such a bummer! I need to either start using a local blogging app or I need to install a keystroke recorder that saves what I type to a text file in case crashes like this happen. :(

Oh well! You just don’t get to hear about all that stuff cuz after painfully trying to save it for a ridiculously long time, I can’t bear to take the time to rewrite it. Atleast not tonite.

*sigh* Well.. I will tell you part of it: Photos from November shows are posted.

hello friday!

This week has been long. Mostly cuz last week really didn’t end & I worked through the weekend. On Wednesday someone said “I can’t believe tomorrow’s already Thursday! This week is flying by…”, but I felt like it could easily have been Friday already. But today is finally Friday and I don’t think I’ll work as much this weekend. But I still will probably work a little… but that’s OK because the good news is I have been CRANKIN and I’m LOVING it.

I’m totally loving work right now! I’m sooo busy and sooo productive, it’s just sweet. Being productive RULES! You should try it sometime! The project I worked on last week & over the weekend ended up being way more enjoyable than I thought I was going to be, too, so that was cool. And overall I just love my clients and have really been enjoying knocking a ton off my list(s).

Other than work, I did go to a show last Friday night: Les Savy Fav at Slims. They were awesome, as always. Totally hilarious, full of energy – they take you on a fun rollercoaster the whole show. Slims isn’t my favorite venue though and I kinda wished it was at GAMH again, but we were pretty close up front, and this time there weren’t too many stinky people, so it wasn’t too bad.

Saturday night we went to Fray Day and it was great. Some really fantastic stories, and I saw a lot of people I knew – including my friends who came along: Rick, Lyne & Stig (and 2 of his friends). The highlight in my opinion was Kid Beyond. He did a whole Portishead song and it was AWESOME. Totally incredible, I was way impressed.

Sunday night I went over to my friend Kristin’s for dinner. She made this amazing Moroccan Chicken (crock pot action!) over cous cous and it was tres magnifique! Or however you say “totally delicious” in Moroccan :) It was great to see her and catch up because usually we see eachother at shows & we’re really rushed and then always think we’re going to match up later at the show, but then never find eachother. Or if we do, we’re busy listening to the band & not chatting, so ya, it was good to sit and catch up over yummy food, wine and even some candy corns for desert :p

Monday night Rick & I went & saw The Incredibles!! It was SOOO FUN!!!!!! I want to see it again already :) Elastigirl’s character totally impressed me w/ her abilities. If I had a super power it would for sure to be invisible though like Violet. She’s not old enough yet, but I think later on she could easily use that skill for some serious kinky voyeur action. I’m just sayin’.

:::: Random stuff:

I’m buying a new wacom tablet today! woohoo!

I’m selling an 20GB External HD (USB 2.0), another Wacom tablet (4×5 Graphire) that was my sisters and is for PC – we’ve both gone mac & now need to switch hence the big wacom turnover around here. Lemme know if you’re interested in either of these. Note: The wacom is specifically for a PC desktop. update: now posted on craigslist

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I cleaned up my house and it is soooo much better!! Working my arse off this last week things have built up something fierce. I think the pile of clothes in my bathroom (pile where clothes get thrown before jumpin in the shower) was the largest it’s ever been. I’m aspiring to Jem’s messiness :p hahaa (poking her for her disasterous room I saw a couple weeks ago, and she said she’d even cleaned up!)

So that’s cleaned up now, and the 2 items of furniture that seemed orphaned in the middle of my living room have now found homes in my home, and have even created more space/convenient shelves for me! Hard to explain, but just know that I’m STOKED. :)

My dishes are clean, the bedding is clean, my coffeetable actually has NOTHING on it! I get off on a clean house, so things are feeling good.

Oh, a notable part of my kickin butt in the productive department is this cool app I’m using: ToDo X

If you get off on making to do lists & then crossing off your accomplishments as much as I do, (and you’re on a mac) then you need to get this application. It’s SWEET!!

You can have categories of lists, and then within those lists, you can make notes on the items. Here’s an example of one of my lists, so you can see how I’ve added notes to that specific to do.

I used to use a Planner Pad, and it is very cool – but I find since I’m always looking at the computer, somehow it would get really easy to forget what list I may have in there, or laying around on the various scribbled notes around my desk. So since this is always open – and top priority items even put a little red mark on the taskbar icon, I am always referencing it.

I had started to use stickies, but I was bummed I couldn’t check things off & instead I just was deleting stuff.. and it left all the formatting up to me. But thanks to ToDo X, the joy of checking off my to-do’s has never been better! *holds up product with a wholesome smile*

What are you listening to?

Do you ever have days that you just feel a tad alone? Or that life, and the day to day responsibility of making decisions, feels really difficult and you just want someone to hold you and say it’s ok?

Here’s 5 albums that say, “I feel your pain, and I’m here to oooh and aaah your worries away”:

Honorable Mentions (I didn’t plan to ad, but upon looking through my collection these also definitely qualify:

You better get some of these soon.. the holidays are coming :)

Independent film…

There are two new independent movies out that I think look interesting:

They should be coming through the bay area soon, but the dates aren’t announced yet. Let me know if you happen to hear or read about the SF date announced.

UPDATE: Tarnation is playing here & I think Sarah & I are going to go see it this weekend!

I still want to go see Motorcycle Diaries, too.. and the Incredibles!! But I think that’ll probably be playing through Thanksgiving, it’s doing so well.