Willo O'Brien

scaredy cat

My friend Aaron asked me if I wanted to go see 28 Days Later – and I really want to from a great film/creative point of view – but I decided that it’s waaaaay too scarey for me!

Now that I live on my own now – I have enough trouble taming my over active imagination w/o the help of more scary images trompin their way in!!! :) I have major motion picture color dreams – most of which I remember in scary amounts of detail… and even my daydreams are quite elaborate (I think I have all my years in school to thank for this)

I told Aaron (who’s a designer and cinematographer) I wish I could talk to Stephen King for this reason. Sometimes I feel like I could be capable of making scary movies cuz I make up such scarey things in my head!! But that’s the problem – they scare me too much!!! I lay in my bed thinking “think happy thoughts! think happy thoughts! flowers in a field, babies and kittens” hahhahaaa!!!

This is from a girl who literally almost had to get up & walk out the first time I saw Sixth Sense. Not to mention crying for almost an hour afterwards. gawd, I’m so affected, huh? hahaa ….I like to call it sensitive and creative :p

OH MY GAWD

Our old place is going for $1650 now!!! Holy sh*t! We paid $1825 and that was low for that great place. Boy how times have changed!!!!! If you’re looking for a great 2 bedroom place in the city, go rent that one! It’s a steal!!

the little dance

I soo can’t deal with men right now!! The little dance that a man and a women does when the first meet… the flirting, the poking fun, the whole trifling process of getting to know someone… it’s EXHAUSTING!! GAWD!!! I’m just NOT in the mood at ALL lately. It makes me tired just thinking about it!

Girls somehow are different. I can hang out with girlfriends and not worry about it. Girls are comforting and bright and fun and easy. Men have a bit of a heavy weight tied to them for me right now. It’s all complicated and gooey. Yes, all – I’m in what’s called “the healing phase” :) hahaa. I welcome and embrace it!!! Girls, let’s hang out! Men – GO AWAY! hahahaa. (all too harsh of a statement coming from someone who’s actually been rather full of some serious sexual tention here lately)

Seriously though, I just find myself not wanting to deal and pushing away anything that comes close to what could be any kind of attraction. I’m enjoying this time by myself. I’ve got soo much to do on my own freelance and creative projects – and beyond that I am enjoying hanging out with the wonderful friends I have in my life right now.

I am however looking forward to a time when relationships feel better for me. Right now they just look grim. I’m almost bitter at others happiness… tired of hearing about how great people’s lives are with their babies and their lovely couplehood. ug. I used to love that stuff too! But for now – in this span of today, this week, this month… I’m OVER it.

All this pushing away and selectiveness isn’t too Willo-like, really. Anyone that knows me knows I’m way into meeting new people and I always will be. But lately it’s just been so refreshing to be around friends who *really* know me. Last weekend was wonderful for this reason.

Hanging out with my dear friends David & Elana and their two kiddos was soo nice. Their happy little life is actually just lovely to me, cuz they’re like family. I just adore D & E and love their little babies like they’re my own. Then Saturday night spending time with Derek & Sandy just reminded me even more of the people I want to surround myself with. They’re people who “get” what kind of energy they’re giving off to the world and the people around them. People who like to have friends that are like family. Sandy and Derek are soo generous and their outlook on life and the goals ahead of them is so refreshing. They’re laid back and just so full of love. What’s missing in that picture? Drama, jealousy, pettyness, ignorance and selfishness. Nope, not missing that one bit – I can really do without that shit.

So that’s where I’m at. I’m actually doing a lot better lately it seems. Getting more perspective on things by the day. My mood has been fairly mellow and even keel. The energetic, super-positive Willo still shows her face most of the time. But on the inside there’s a wound healing and it’s taking a lot of energy to pulsate around that and make it all better.

All you attractive men of my dreams, just hold off for a couple months already! Or a YEAR! hahhaaa

afternoon snack

Elizabeth and I just went & grabbed an afternoon snack. Usually we hit the good ol’ Jolt & Bolt cafe downstairs for a cookie (they have an amaazing bakery on the premises – and make great coffee/lunch food too). But today we went to the corner store, we fondly call “The Rotten Meat Store” cuz they leave sandwiches, sushi and hardboiled eggs out on a table aall day long in the stuffy warmth of the store (eeww!).

Lizziebot (and, in case you didn’t know, around the office here I’m Willobot) got a lime popsicle and I got Skittles. However, my skittles aren’t as great as I was hoping. I don’t need much sugar these days.. I’ve tried to cut back – so sometimes when I have it now it makes me feel ick.

So after Lizzie & I soaked up the sun for a bit and returned to the office, Jan & I started talking about sugar and desserts. I voiced to her that these skittles were too sugary for me and then added, “but then again give me a chocolate mousse and I’ll have no problem with eating all that!” :) …And then the topic came to ice cream. Mmmm!!!

My absolute favorite ice cream is Dulche de Leche – but I must say, recently I tried a new limited edition ice cream Haagen-Dazs released: Vanilla Caramel Brownie ! It’s DELICIOUS!!! Since it’s limited edition, make sure you go get it now.

My dreamy dessert recommendation:

Crumble up a few Newman O’s in the bottom of the bowl and then garnish the top with an ‘O’ or 2 on the side.

Now desserts like that I can handle. Mmm!

blog posting lame-o

Yo, sorry I’ve been bad about posting these last couple days. Some days there’s just so much to say & some there’s not!

To keep you company for now – if you haven’t seen this already – watch this kick ass Honda Ad (you only need the flash 6 plugin to view it).

I’ve been busy… last weekend’s photos are posted, see that blog entry for links to them.

I’m just crazy busy right now – work is very busy… Monday night I worked late and then went to work out, so when I do that by the time I get home I basically eat, try to do some email or freelance and then hit the bed.

Tuesday night Jane & I had a quick bite and then went to see this guy Scott Andrew play for an extended open-mic at Rockin’ Java in the Haight. But as I know most of you are avid readers of her site, too – you probably already knew that :)

Tonight I had BAM (I work w/ teens on a weekly basis out in the sunset, producing Bamboozled.org) and I literally came home & have been trying to catch up on email and organize a bit around here. I’m kickin myself in the butt for not getting more done on Sunday & instead just laying around :) I have got so much laundry & straightening up to do!

This weekend I’m going to Healdsburg for a short visit. My good friends Sandy and Derek live up there Derek’s an amazing chef – they own a restaurant! Sandy & I haven’t seen eachother in years. We’ve known eachother since about 94/95 and I she was the only person I knew when I moved up here in ’96. They’re moving to Hawaii soon and opening up a restaurant there, so we figured we better see eachother one last time before they live on a different piece of land mass! I’m looking forward to it.

Boy – here I thought I didn’t have anything to say!! hahaa